Superhero Princess

 So Hannah has been wanting to hang out with her friends over the break, and we set up a movie date with her friends.  The movie was Sonic 3.  Hannah hadn't seen Sonic 1 and 2, but was super excited to see her friends.   We got there and started the movie.  It started normal, Keanu Reeves was the voice of Shadow the Hedgehog.  Jim Carrey was very bombastic as Dr. Robotnik.  I thought I was in for an entertaining and pretty shallow video game movie.  And then, the flashback to a young girl dying of an accident.  (I guess in Sonic canon, this is a pretty important event).  I started to hold back the tears.  I looked to Hannah- who was a few seats down with her friends.  I was hoping she didn't notice with all the other bright lights and speeding around.  It didn't seem to faze her. As the movie rolled along, Sonic confronted Shadow and referred to Shadow's loss by saying “A light shines even though the star is gone...

So, I spent the second weekend in January in Wisconsin.  It was a nice trip with friends after a rough Christmas break.  The roughness of the break was elevated because I let my thoughts of how I am doing in the present push out some of my time that I think about Audrey.  Its hard to explain to other parents.  Maybe I was and am a bad parent before, but I could go minutes and hours without thinking about my kids (for example while getting caught up at work).  I don't go an hour without think about my baby, but these past few weeks, I have definitely let my current situation dictate my time differently.  I think about this a lot.  Last year, I had a colleague who came up to me and told me that I looked stressed out about something at work.  I felt especially bad, because this was the first time I remember getting stressed out about something that wasn't relating to the loss of Audrey.  I know that will happen, but, again, other parents may not...