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 So we made it through Thanksgiving.  After the craziest end to the bears game, dinner went really well.  Mandy did  a great job with the turkey and the sides.  We even got some board and card games in at the end.  To wrap up the end of the night, I posted this: For those that we didn't spend Thanksgiving with, I may have been misleading that Thanksgiving wasn't good.  It went well.  There are lots of details left out. I was thankful for being with family.  I do have a lot to be thankful for: Amanda, Hannah, my family (especially my dad) have been really helpful over the last 2 months. But I meant what I posted: Thanksgiving will never be the same.   We went to bed, woke up, did some black Friday shopping, ate some leftovers, worked out, and then decided to watch Moana 2 as a family.  So Mandy bought tickets to the 4:45 show and we did a few more tasks around the house.  I set up my Christmas village, which by the way, ear...

  When we first lost Audrey, people often said, or we read in grief books, how in child loss it doesn’t get any easier. There was always some variation of:  It’s hard to know what “it doesn’t really ever get any easier” means when you’re first in the throws of it though, and the shock is so intense. I’ve also come to understand that for me, personally, the shock has been profound and longer lasting than for some others. 15 months in, it’s still really hard for me to grasp most days that Audrey is gone, and that it’s permanent. But it truly isn’t any easier than it was in those first weeks. Which is really hard to fathom if you think about it- How can our world still be as rocked and shaken as it was then, how can this still be as painful and sad and traumatic as then?- Yet it still is. The sadness seems only to grow deeper and the fullness of missing all of who Audrey is continues to grow in our lives. Our family wasn’t complete before she came into our lives, and now we a...